Living a life of stillness in this busy world

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Friends, let’s be honest on this day, today.  My  heart is heavy with stuff.  Yeah, I try to put it all together out there for others to see, flawless and whole.  But that’s not me.  I’ve been honest with myself and have taken a long look at what my life what it is about.  In this busy life we call ours, it’s really becoming a management of one urgent crisis or another.

My shoulders are heavy and tired and weak.

“Lord, I lift my burdens to You alone and I lay them down at your feet.  Will you give me some simplicity today?”  I prayed those words the other day.  I simply put it all out there for God to hear.  Liberation came in just in the confessing and I realized that I was trying to do things on my own.

Immediately, I was convicted of some false insecurities that continue to rise up (in my soul and spirit) and drag, weigh, and bear down upon my mind.  My problems, my cares, my duties, my hopes, my dreams were anchored in my own efforts.  “Wait…I thought to myself…I have freedom in those areas.”  Or at least I thought I did.

In the confessing, I realized I was trying to create a comfortable life for myself and my feelings.  On top of that, I also realized that I was covering my life with right “to-do’s” or tasks and such but I was forgetting about the one important thing needed.  Can we just be honest today?  Aren’t there those days we all face, where it takes this kind of realization to see where you need to grow in your simplicity of managing life?

What I heard back from God, (yes, I know it was His voice) was “Will you just walk with Me?”.  

There were a lot of tears involved in the process.  Then I remembered a season in my life that I used to cry often everyday and all day.  My life was full of regret of a list of things that I never accomplished.  My next thought became one of rejoicing because of a major shift and many changes that have occured in the recent years of  my life.  I don’t live a life of regret-filled days anymore.

I rejoiced in the fact that those days of regret are over and now I can choose to adopt the pace of God, my Father, in the life of my today.  If I could let you into my brain for a moment, there’s a stillness that needs to happen inside of your thoughts that causes you to choose your best life in considerations of what you have around you, the blessings in life instead of the regrets of life.  (I am realizing this lifestyle goes deeper than your task list or the things you think about any morning like…”I’m behind on so many things!” kind of thinking.)

Now I’m getting stuck in the multiple list of thoughts that come rising up in a woman’s mind especially when she feels behind, unfulfilled and a list of unmet needs are left open in her life.  Okay, now back to the choosing.

There has to be season that as you are emptying your life of what it isn’t, and there is a choice to rejoice in what it is.  In the choosing to accept the rejoicing, the living, the owning your life, the doing of life, you must celebrate with what you have, and begin believing that anything is possible with God in the middle of it all.

There I said it, not simply said, because life isn’t like that.  At all.  It’s complicated, full of tensions, stresses, and problems.  But when we confess that we can’t do life without God, then that’s when the miracles start happening.  In that way of thinking, you have to admit there is more than what God has intended FOR you and designed you for and you MUST surrender the controls over to HIM.  He knows what is best and right and good FOR you.  He knows how big your tiny shoulders are.  He knows your capacity for loads and He hasn’t forgotten your to-do list.  He put the passions inside of you to accomplish what He has designed you for.

He hasn’t forgotten where He has put those things.  Have you forgotten where your strength comes from?  I did.  I honestly thought…”okay God, I can do this (believing that I had to do what He has called me to do on my own.)  That’s not right honestly, because I need God to accomplish what HE has put inside of me to do and what HE wants to purpose in my life.

Simply said, I need Jesus every hour of the day to live.  Honestly, this IS the life I am in (and I don’t know how it is with you).  I need Him to carry me, to help me choose what I need to be doing, to carry out what He wants me to do, and most days I am overwhelmed simply by His goodness in my life.  I am complicated, full of tensions, and stresses just like you.  Challenges come and go, but I can’t live or exist as His much loved child without Him.

These are the things that are on my mind today.  What’s on yours?

 

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Why I share my faith

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“This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief.”  1 Timothy 1:15

One thing I know about me is that my voice carries.  What the Lord has shown me is how far.  We tend to forget that when we are out here in the middle of the world wide web.  This is the “what” of this place, to carry the voice of Grace.  My “why” is…because I don’t know who needs to hear.

I was reading in Psalm 91 today and praying protection over my missionary friends and I got to the end of the verse and there was a line that jumped off the page.  In one line, and since I am a wordsmith, I often get a ton of meaning through just a few words.  God’s Word is my saving grace and perhaps today it could be yours.

I share my faith here is because I don’t know who needs to hear grace today.  There’s a story about Oswald Chambers who, before a big speech, wanted to check the acoustics of the venue that he was speaking in.  He wanted to make sure his voice carried well to all the corners as a large attendance was expected.  The year was 1857.  Standing on the stage he quoted a verse (the one above) from the very spot in which he would being making his speech the next day.  He seemed satisfied with the test and then left to go rest.

Little did Chambers know at the time of the test who needed to hear that verse.  Behind one of the statues inside the venue, a humble worker was kneeling, hiding, and battling depression.  The worker couldn’t find the words to pray, his heart was breaking with guilt and shame, and he couldn’t even cry out with a “help”.  Just as he keeled in silence, a voice boomed from every corner.

“This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief.”  1 Timothy 1:15 …was the worker’s saving grace-filled words.  Grace carried and bounced through space to bring him hope that day.  From one voice to his hurting heart, he converted to Christ.  Little did Oswald Chambers know that the man was hiding, little did Chambers know his hurt.  Nor do I know who is hiding behind this screen right now.

What I do know is that this one verse speaks truth, and shows us God’s grace.  Chambers didn’t waste his opportunity to speak grace into someone’s life.  I think about anything that Chambers could have offered as a test of the microphone and acoustical sound.  He could have said anything, but because God was his everything, he was ready to speak grace everywhere.  Even in such an empty place, because friends, you just never know who is listening.

We have the most worthy of grace, the words of healing, the most significant of sayings to share.  Don’t miss your opportunity to share grace as your life has been spared.  Because you don’t know who is listening that needs that same long drink of grace, mercy and healing.

This is the “why” my talk lines up with God’s walk!

So as this line jumped into my heart (again) ….“I’ll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation.”  Psalm 91:16.  Would you do something for me today?  Let your mind go to your own empty place and and imagine what the tallest drink of refreshment looks like.  A tall glass of water, tea, koolaid, or whatever your pleasure is.  Now let your mind go to the refreshing qualities of that drink.  It’s cold, icey, endless.  You’ve just come in from a hot summer’s day, and are sooooo thirsty.  Your inmost parts feel like a dry, sandy desert and you need a drink, a long drink that quenches your thirst.  God’s Word is like this long of a drink you are thinking of right now.  Take a taste and let it flow down your throat, hit your stomach, accept it as a substance of truth and let it refresh you in a way that is so quenching.

His saving grace message is worthy, acceptable and true.  Whatever empty place you are hiding right now there is only one Grace that can fill your needs, it’s God’s saving grace, Christ Jesus.  Because I don’t know who’s reading.